Today was my first day at the singles branch. There were probably five guys and about forty girls, which is the usual for most younger-aged LDS gatherings. I made a really nice friend right off the bad and that was awesome. I thought it would be really awkward glancing around the room after all of the uncomfortable introductions but it was nice. We have a lot in common and it was sad to leave after relief society because we had such a fun time. I'm really starting to get excited to go to all of the family home evenings, temple trips, sports nights, and institute next year.
The lesson today was about giving the Lord equal time, meaning that when we spend an hour worrying and doubting the gospel we need to stand back up and spend an hour reading the scriptures. Heavenly Father cannot help us through our situations and problems in life if we don't turn everything over to Him, including our time. It was really nice to hear that message because I've been having a lot of trouble dedicating and setting aside time just for me and Him to draw closer. But I know that if I give Him the time that He deserves out of the entire 24 hours that he has blessed me with, he will be there for me during the stressful moments when I'm not able to focus and concentrate on Him.
Breaking up with my non-member boyfriend was definitely the right decision. I've learned a lot about myself, including the fact that I don't want to spend the rest of my life with someone who doesn't share my beliefs. It's too easy to put God on the back burner when you try to live your life with someone who doesn't understand why I want to spend three hours at church or stay at home and study when I could be having "fun." Anyway. I know it's going to open up a lot of opportunities and for now I'll have more time to focus on my relationship with the Lord and I'm grateful that He has helped me get through this with the wisdom and the emotional strength that I would lack if I was on my own.